But I guess it’s about time to say by bye

I am so tired of having you in a nightmare relationship

Thinking if I should have you in my life or not

Do you deserve me or someone deserves you better…

Please let me go…I want to be free

Free of hesitations and weariness

My heart is so tired

Let me say bye bye…

Unexpressive feelings is what I can’t utter

The feelings that I want to get over;

Even words are not enough to express

But here are some of them I can confess.

I’m happy whenever you are near to me

I’m so proud of myself and feel so lucky;

Especially when you look into my eyes

It seems I’m floating so high in the skies.

Whenever you are not around in my sight

I feel so hopeless and weak all the night;

My eyes are getting deeper ‘cause you are not here

Wishing you come back and make our love truer.

There are unexpressive words I could only define

Words that I feel truly are so hard to bind;

I just wanna hope you believe what I’m saying

This is just a feeling that is full of meaning.

Silence….tell me
Where to start from this hostile life
How will I deal with my problem?
If you’d be there…
Would they hear me?

If I would outburst my agony
Will silence overtake?
Silence please be with me
I need you to be here with me
I need you to share my grief.

Silence, take me to where you are
To where my big brother is;
Silence, whisper to him
I love him so much
Despite he does not love me back.

Sssh…I’m not over yet
I still have my big sister
I miss her now, please murmur to her
To please change for the better
And detour in God’s way before it’s not too late.

I won’t forget this special one
My younger sister, I know you know her
She approaches you sometimes, right?
Send her my best regards
Don’t let her be tempted in this world.

I don’t want to this miss this guy
Oh, silence please….
Please watch over him
He’s still young and more things to be done
Let the goodness rules towards him.

How about my mom and dad, silence?
Silence, would you still recognize?
The feelings I feel towards them
I know you would but
It’s only you should know despite the heartaches I have.

Now I finally believe this assertion, so true
Letting go is another way of saying I love you.
That’s why I let it happen to us
I just can’t take that it would last.

I was thinking you won’t perceive what I feel
But when I gave you a chance, you said
“I love you too from the start”
Oh yes, we’d love each other instantly.

However, I can’t imagine how you do this to me
You lied when you still love your girl
I was thinking I can replace your love to me;
But oh no…it’s me who begs that failed.

So, it’s about time to get over you
From my head and heart, so blue;
It’s about time not to love you anymore
‘Cause you’re not worthy of the love I gave.

It’s about time to freed myself from silliness
Because the truth is
I have to set this love free
It’s about time to love you better this way.

When I’m all alone
Perfection exists on my own
I can no longer think of blunders
All I can see is most direct, no errs
The thoughts of changing into better
Thinking the things to be done in God’s will.

No more laughter
No more smiles and tears
thinking…all over again
Just a pen and a bit of paper I gain.
Making my anguish gone is the aim
Asking ‘why am I like this anyway?’
‘why do I think this way?’

Even the truth, I long to be better
What then my way of getting over?
Putting myself in a cubicle-like room
Taking down the things on my mind
If reading can make me comprehend
Or just even in writing if I can learn
Or should I change the real me?
I am what I want to be…

I proved to be the best in touch
But I am not excellent that much
I want to be in God’s hand of will
But nobody can show me how I will
What I truly deserve to feel.
I always feel so frustrated and disrespected maybe
Everything is so unkind to me
Seems everyone betrays my dignity
I am felicitous today
But why am I dreary the other day?

Don’t I have any option?
Could there be someone can carry me on
That the life they are telling
I may not suppose to be in subsisting
Since I don’t understand this
What’s the way it is…

Can you blame me if I feel this way?
Am I too bad to be always in jeopardy?
I am just born to be a human
Some things are obstructed and undone
I am not that clever to understand
Every other man’s imperfection.

I am just an unaffectedly simple in a way
Certified namby-pamby as people say
There’s nothing remarkable about me
I am just an artless writer of my life story.

I extremely feel the real meaning of affection
There exist an extraordinary obsession
Proven finally this is my self-renovation
In you…I feel I almost fulfill my ambition.

Never I expected someone will incline how am I
You’re always here in my side every time I need to sigh
Obviously your attachment is soaring high more than I
In you…I find my greatest endearment which never die.

There has been a promise of love to be awaited
A vow which never I heard from anyone in deed
Nourish my heart and soul those passionate words you’ve said
In you…I have explored my fleeting future ahead.

I felt true love and happiness that only you can bring
Wrong intuitions vanished when sneaking in me and sing
Love songs that that touched my depth there you reach in capturing
In you…I could tell the whole world I love you much undying.

All my life
I’ve never felt this kind of feelings before
It’s a strong affection that surpasses for sure
Hope this love of ours will stay forevermore.

Having someone to be with was nonexistent any more

Been thinking I could not fall again at all

Got the chance to know you so well

Didn’t even expect we can do the things together compatibly

Now you’re telling me, I can’t live without you

That you would do anything for what we have started

And so here I am again, believing to what you try to say

And how about her?

Don’t you really even care for an angel and her?

I’m so caught between holding you or just let go

Keep asking myself if you are worth-letting go

The people around me are pushing me away from you

I just can’t say No and that I already love you

Now tell me, are you worth-letting go?

Never been as glad as I am right now if without you

All I wanted is just you, simply just you

You’re saying goodbye to her just when she needs you most

If I will be happy when she will be despair

Don’t know any longer if you are worth-letting go

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